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Otakon 2013 First time Cosplayer
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Hey there guys I'm back from my anime convention. For those who don't know I attended Otakon, an anime convention held every year during the summer in Baltimore MD. This was my 9th year going to it and this year was my first time ever cosplaying. As you all already know I went as Big Sister from the game Bioshock 2 because I love horror themed first person shooters and the Bioshock series is my favorite. It took me months and quite a bit of money to make my cosplay *took a few trial and errors on making everything* and I was seriously a nervous wreck the day before I went to Otakon.
Anyways Fridays events: Woke up and began to try on my cosplay which took forever to do then when I tried to put my needle prop on my arm...it completely fell apart which I SWEAR nearly made me cry. The reason why is because even though I knew in the back of my mind people will still know who I was cosplaying as without the weapon, I felt as though without the weapon then it wouldn't be a [i]true[/i] Big Sister cosplay. BUT since my mom and dad had been waiting months *and watching my money account deplete* for me to wear the outfit I knew I couldn't disappoint them. Plus I'd been advertising on different sites about what I was going to cosplay and some people really wanted to see my work. So I sucked it up, left my needle at home, and proceeded to allow my mother and neighbor to take pictures of my cosplay before leaving for Otakon *pics have already been uploaded*.
I really thought I was going to be sick during the car ride and I wanted to shout for my mom to turn around because I thought I looked terrible. It didn't help that I didn't take any of my medications at all that day or the day before....my xanax would've been amazing at that moment.
For those who haven't figured out by now I am an overweight girl. I have been since I was.....10 or maybe even before that. Been ridiculed for it for years and still going through it now despite the fact that I lost a lot of weight *still not at my target weight for a girl my size but it's better than nothing*. It's sad to say that I'm [i]slightly[/i] used to all the fat jokes, people mocking me, blah blah; however there's a time where I [i]hope[/i] that I don't hear it. That time for me is when I'm attending anime conventions because I feel like I'm around people who understand what it's like to be different from society's "norm" and know what hurts and what doesn't. However a few months ago when I was researching stuff for my cosplay I stumbled onto a site that said "Worst Bioshock Cosplays" and you can just guess what was on it. That made me want to scream especially since 1) the site gets updated every few months apparently and 2) a few cosplayers on the site attended the same Otakon that I go to....
Oh yeah a site that's literally about horrible cosplays from Bioshock; that totally didn't make me want to scream, shout, and throw myself out the window.
So back to the main idea: as we pulled into the front of the convention center all I could think about was that somewhere in that convention center was the jackass who made that site is somewhere in that building just waiting to make a fool out of me and my hard work. It took me awhile to get my mask on since my shoulder armor and chest piece made it difficult for me to move but once I got everything on I did my walk of shame.
TOTAL ONE EIGHTY!
I took five steps away from my mom's car and already 6 people jumped out of the registration line and asked for my picture. At first I turned around to see if they meant a random cosplayer standing behind me but when a few said that they wanted a picture with the Big Sister you can guess how happy I was. After they got their pics they said that they loved my mask and was shocked when I told them this was my first time cosplaying. Even said I did a great job and offered some improvement in certain areas. But it was all in all a great first attempt.
I'll admit even though I heard what they said I thought it was just beginner's luck but as the day progressed I got my picture taken a grand total of 77 times plus was in a Bioshock themed photoshoot and was asked to appear in another photoshoot on Saturday. It was pretty amazing I'll admit that, despite the fact that my legs and arms were killing me from walking all day and the fact that it was difficult to move my arms because of my armor.
The rest of the weekend was a bit slow but it was pretty cool. Even the vendors in the dealer's room kept asking me about my mask and I got a few freebies because I was the first Big Sister they've seen in years *YAY free anime buttons*.
Was I still nervous as the weekend continued? Hell yeah but not as bad as before. I mean I still heard negative comments from some people about how a girl of my size should've picked a character that better suits my body shape. One even had the balls to say that a black girl should only cosplay other black/dark skinned characters but that's a rant for another day.
So yeah all in all first time cosplaying was pretty good. However next time I think I should pick something less bulky. I kinda already have an idea on what I want to do believe it or not. Also to the people that I met there: thanks for cheering me up and talking with me: again sorry if my weird medical facts creeped you out!
Anyways Fridays events: Woke up and began to try on my cosplay which took forever to do then when I tried to put my needle prop on my arm...it completely fell apart which I SWEAR nearly made me cry. The reason why is because even though I knew in the back of my mind people will still know who I was cosplaying as without the weapon, I felt as though without the weapon then it wouldn't be a [i]true[/i] Big Sister cosplay. BUT since my mom and dad had been waiting months *and watching my money account deplete* for me to wear the outfit I knew I couldn't disappoint them. Plus I'd been advertising on different sites about what I was going to cosplay and some people really wanted to see my work. So I sucked it up, left my needle at home, and proceeded to allow my mother and neighbor to take pictures of my cosplay before leaving for Otakon *pics have already been uploaded*.
I really thought I was going to be sick during the car ride and I wanted to shout for my mom to turn around because I thought I looked terrible. It didn't help that I didn't take any of my medications at all that day or the day before....my xanax would've been amazing at that moment.
For those who haven't figured out by now I am an overweight girl. I have been since I was.....10 or maybe even before that. Been ridiculed for it for years and still going through it now despite the fact that I lost a lot of weight *still not at my target weight for a girl my size but it's better than nothing*. It's sad to say that I'm [i]slightly[/i] used to all the fat jokes, people mocking me, blah blah; however there's a time where I [i]hope[/i] that I don't hear it. That time for me is when I'm attending anime conventions because I feel like I'm around people who understand what it's like to be different from society's "norm" and know what hurts and what doesn't. However a few months ago when I was researching stuff for my cosplay I stumbled onto a site that said "Worst Bioshock Cosplays" and you can just guess what was on it. That made me want to scream especially since 1) the site gets updated every few months apparently and 2) a few cosplayers on the site attended the same Otakon that I go to....
Oh yeah a site that's literally about horrible cosplays from Bioshock; that totally didn't make me want to scream, shout, and throw myself out the window.
So back to the main idea: as we pulled into the front of the convention center all I could think about was that somewhere in that convention center was the jackass who made that site is somewhere in that building just waiting to make a fool out of me and my hard work. It took me awhile to get my mask on since my shoulder armor and chest piece made it difficult for me to move but once I got everything on I did my walk of shame.
TOTAL ONE EIGHTY!
I took five steps away from my mom's car and already 6 people jumped out of the registration line and asked for my picture. At first I turned around to see if they meant a random cosplayer standing behind me but when a few said that they wanted a picture with the Big Sister you can guess how happy I was. After they got their pics they said that they loved my mask and was shocked when I told them this was my first time cosplaying. Even said I did a great job and offered some improvement in certain areas. But it was all in all a great first attempt.
I'll admit even though I heard what they said I thought it was just beginner's luck but as the day progressed I got my picture taken a grand total of 77 times plus was in a Bioshock themed photoshoot and was asked to appear in another photoshoot on Saturday. It was pretty amazing I'll admit that, despite the fact that my legs and arms were killing me from walking all day and the fact that it was difficult to move my arms because of my armor.
The rest of the weekend was a bit slow but it was pretty cool. Even the vendors in the dealer's room kept asking me about my mask and I got a few freebies because I was the first Big Sister they've seen in years *YAY free anime buttons*.
Was I still nervous as the weekend continued? Hell yeah but not as bad as before. I mean I still heard negative comments from some people about how a girl of my size should've picked a character that better suits my body shape. One even had the balls to say that a black girl should only cosplay other black/dark skinned characters but that's a rant for another day.
So yeah all in all first time cosplaying was pretty good. However next time I think I should pick something less bulky. I kinda already have an idea on what I want to do believe it or not. Also to the people that I met there: thanks for cheering me up and talking with me: again sorry if my weird medical facts creeped you out!
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Update on Life
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Greetings to those who watch me. So yeah I know it's been forever since I made a journal entry. Probably because usually when I go on here it's to see pretty artwork or check up on updates from certain artists. So since I see a lot of people updating people about their lives I feel like I should do the same.
Okay where to begin.....
Well I just finished my second year of college and this past year wasn't exactly great to be honest...I failed a class like legitly got an F in one of my core classes and got a D in another one which set me back a year for applying to my major. Failing isn't something I do and my mentality took a fatal blow when I got my grades. Which meant my depression went into overdrive and took a big blow at my social life making it non-existent.
Blah blah boring details later my parents noticed my lack of interest socializing with real people so I went to therapy 3 times a week and they had me try a bunch of new anti-depressants until they found the kind and the dosage that actually worked. Also had to get some "happy pills" for my anxiety attacks and something to help me focus. Long story short I am more medicated now than I had ever been in my life.
Do I hate it? No I don't because I think all the pills are helping me with minimal side effects.
Okay that's the down part of my life. The newest part is that I'm currently in the process of finishing up my current cosplay. And for those who read my first journal I decided against the Viola from SC5. I might still make that later on in life but right now I'm working on something new. I won't be revealing what it is until I'm COMPLETELY done with it. But if it helps here's a few hints: It's a girl from a videogame that I'm completely obsessed with.
Haha I know that's not great of a hint but what can I say I like a little mystery.
But yeah that's my life right now. Just going through the motions finishing up my cosplay project with anticipation of going to the upcoming anime convention. Battling off my nerves because like most girls/guys who cosplay I'm worried if I'm going to be that cosplayer that people make fun of because of this and that.
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So yeah just as the title says I'm hoping to make a cosplay for myself and I always wanted to go as Viola from Soul Calibur 5.
I've done tons of research on it, added up all the cost of material, *making it from scratch it MUCH cheaper than actually buying the outfit from an online store*, and I'm hoping to get this done by Otakon of 2013 which is in August so that gets me plenty of time.
I start buying material in October and the hardest part to make would be her corset top obviously xD But yeah I'll be submitting pics of my step by step progress of the outfit since this will the be the second time I made a cosplay for myself. My first being Lightning from Final Fantasy but I gained weight and it couldn't fit when Otakon rolled around
Depressing sad face couple of days that was.
But yeah let's hope for the best and everything and wish me luck even though my main goal is to be that one cosplayer that people don't make fun of xD
I've done tons of research on it, added up all the cost of material, *making it from scratch it MUCH cheaper than actually buying the outfit from an online store*, and I'm hoping to get this done by Otakon of 2013 which is in August so that gets me plenty of time.
I start buying material in October and the hardest part to make would be her corset top obviously xD But yeah I'll be submitting pics of my step by step progress of the outfit since this will the be the second time I made a cosplay for myself. My first being Lightning from Final Fantasy but I gained weight and it couldn't fit when Otakon rolled around
Depressing sad face couple of days that was.But yeah let's hope for the best and everything and wish me luck even though my main goal is to be that one cosplayer that people don't make fun of xD
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